i dunno why. with some ppl, even some who i just met, i can just express myself without hesitation. with others, even after knowing them for as long as 2.5 years, i still find it difficult to say what i truly feel.

initially, i thought it was because i don't trust ppl easily. but come to think of it, there are plenty of ppl i trust! primary school friends i keep in contact with most like janice, simphoni. 11 out of 19 2do5 girls. 9 out of 15 2d05 guys. even ppl in 3b, i trust jolenelai, kailin, etc. as for squadmates, i think i trust almost all of them.

yup. i even trust boys (although only from 2do5 and those from my squad). i am not close to some of them, but they just give me the feeling that they can be trusted.

hm. i know i can be really hostile to some ppl. that'll be because you are not on the list of ppl i like, nor the list of ppl whom i can trust. but don't have to mind so much la. it doesn't necessarily mean that you are a bad person. it just means that in my eyes, you are not a gd person.

if i don't think you are a gd person, i can't possibly force myself to be nice to you right?