Yesterday was really tiring. H3 Econs Mid-Term Test in the morning for 2.5 hours followed by 3 hours of H3 lesson. Afterwhich, I went for CS production with Jochebed and Qingyi.

Really, I've been on an unlucky streak. Just for yesterday:

1) I slept on the bus to SMU and missed my stop, going all the way to Clark Quay. Thank goodness I went 1 hour plus in advance so I was still early when I finally reached SMU.

2) I was really sure that I took out my phone before the test to switch it to silent mode, but it actually rang halfway during the test!! I was so horrified that I threw my bag on the floor >< (My aunt said that I should have taken my phone out to switch it off, but that would be regarded as cheating right? A Levels leh!) Thank goodness my sms ringtone lasted for only around 5 seconds and it didn't ring for the rest of the 2.5 hours. I still cannot believe it. Did I take out my phone and just put it back into the bag without doing anything? Or did I press the hex key twice such that I switched it back to normal mode again? Ohmans.

3) On normal Saturdays I always just go for H3 lessons (1.30pm to 4.30pm) without eating anything at all in the morning or afternoon. And sometimes my stomach will growl during the lesson, but only for a while. So for yesterday, I specially ate a bun to ensure that I can survive through the 2.5 hours test. And guess what? My stomach growled for the ENTIRE 2.5 hours. The person beside me was only a few centimetres away can. I was so embarrassed that I tried to surpress it, but it became even louder. I couldn't concentrate for a while, and after that I just ignored it and continue doing the test like nothing was happening.

4) After watching CS production, I stepped out of Simei Mrt station just to see bus 5 zooming past. And it was super late and I was super tired already.

5) When I returned home, everyone was asleep already. I called my house phone 6 times and screamed for my mom but apparently she was sleeping too soundly upstairs to hear me. I stood outside the door for like half an hour and started crying before my mom finally came to open the door for me. And I cried myself to sleep.

Oh my goodness. It wasn't just yesterday actually, since CNY my luck has been terrible. That is why despite the fact that I could answer most of the test questions rather decently yesterday, I still refuse to believe that I did okay. I checked with yifan some of the answers and they were all the same. That made me relieved for a while.

But even till today I kept pondering about the test (A levels okay) and finally went to ask guanyin by throwing the red colour crescent-shaped thing. It turned out that it wasn't okay. My grandma did it for me and the results were the same. My brother said that I have been having good luck for so long that it's time I start having bad luck already..

Yes, I know I shouldn't believe in such superstitions. Wang Lao Shi criticised such superstitions during the CLL lesson but I just can't help believing in it. After all, I grew up in such an environment.

And yes, I know I shouldn't ponder over it anymore. No matter whether it's good or bad, it's over and I can't do anything about it anymore. What matters is the future, I still have the final examination which constitutes of 70%! I know but I still can't help thinking about it. I really hate myself for it =(

And thinking about it today has wasted my entire day. I have only done the CLL compre homework today. And I haven't studied for the CLL test tomorrow. It's such a sin to waste a day just for thinking about something that's over.

Today shall be the last day that I do such a stupid thing. I will not talk about it anymore, that would be wasting others' time. I will not think about it anymore. that would be wasting my own time. After this blog post I shall take a good shower and start studying for the CLL test. After which, tomorrow shall be a brand new start whereby I start clearing all my overdue tutorials and start studying hard.

I MUST ACHIEVE MY DREAM OF DOING DUNMAN HIGH PROUD WITH ALL DISTINCTIONS.