9:11 PM
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Completed another two papers today.
Maths paper 2 was much better than paper 1, thank goodness there's some new hope now. Hopefully this hope is not merely an illusion - I must believe in Statistics!
CLL paper 1 was fine too, don't know why I had so much excess time today. Really suspected that I had missed out some questions or something :\ Oh. And I enjoyed writing my zuo wen today! Really felt some gan jue, which should be the case since I'm writing shu qing wen. Usually during exams it's the case of writing for the sake of filling up the pieces of paper, but this time it just felt different, with more purpose and stuff :D
Perhaps I should be happy for scraping past, but personally I believe that I don't deserve it. Should be most probably a case of grade inflation, or something went wrong with the marking. Whatever the case, I shall do as I promised and slog for paper 1.
But I feel really sleepy and tired now... The slogging shall start tomorrow!
6:28 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
i flopped my econs paper 2 for prelims. i think i'm gonna fail.
The sense of impending doom before stepping into the hall was terrifying. Never had I felt so helpless and unprepared before. I went in with an empty head and came out filled with regrets. I couldn't even think logically during the 2hr and 15 mins, making many stupid mistakes that showed a lack of common sense. Seriously, my scripts are all rubbish. Halfway through, I really had an urge to tear up everything and press reset. But apparently it was impossible, so I just continued filling up the papers with rubbish.
I only have myself to blame, for being complacent and neglecting the subject altogether (I only touched it once before prelims since after common test). It's so bad, I've lost every bit of the econs feeling. But I promise, to really really really slog it out for paper 1. Because I don't want to have to depend on moderation to get an A for econs (or even pass, for that matter).
Oh, and it's really frustrating and irritating how nobody believes that I flopped. What 'you don't study also can one la', 'you flop then we all die already'... Zz. I REALLY FLOPPED. GO AND DIE LA.
Argh. I hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself.
12:03 AM
Saturday, September 05, 2009
I seriously cannot believe that I've just taken my GP prelims. It really just felt like a class assignment, and I don't know whether that's a good thing... As usual, I didn't complete my AQ again. I realise that I've NEVER managed to finish it before for major examinations, that's so amazing.
Every single day just flies by at lightning speed, we've experienced our last PE lessons, last tutorials, last Teachers' Day, last phototaking... Which implies that our last day in Dunman High is not too far away as well.
Although this September holidays is for pure mugging, I will constantly remind myself that I'm doing not only for myself, but most importantly for my family and my school. I'm sure this love will keep me motivated (:
JIAYOU everyone!