i flopped my econs paper 2 for prelims. i think i'm gonna fail.

The sense of impending doom before stepping into the hall was terrifying. Never had I felt so helpless and unprepared before. I went in with an empty head and came out filled with regrets. I couldn't even think logically during the 2hr and 15 mins, making many stupid mistakes that showed a lack of common sense. Seriously, my scripts are all rubbish. Halfway through, I really had an urge to tear up everything and press reset. But apparently it was impossible, so I just continued filling up the papers with rubbish.

I only have myself to blame, for being complacent and neglecting the subject altogether (I only touched it once before prelims since after common test). It's so bad, I've lost every bit of the econs feeling. But I promise, to really really really slog it out for paper 1. Because I don't want to have to depend on moderation to get an A for econs (or even pass, for that matter).

Oh, and it's really frustrating and irritating how nobody believes that I flopped. What 'you don't study also can one la', 'you flop then we all die already'... Zz. I REALLY FLOPPED. GO AND DIE LA.

Argh. I hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself.